mindrides

Signs are more significant than we know. One brought a man who had been distant from the Lord to my church today. This relationship changed because of a sign that was posted out on the road. He had a divine encounter with God as a result.

I sit back sometimes and wait for God to give me a sign. Often I’m not looking at all when they are right in front of my face. I want to be the sign maker when it’s not my job. God wants to get my attention.

My pastor said some powerful words that spoke to my heart today. Everyday before our feet touch the floor we should say not my will, but your will be done Lord. God gives signs to me all the time. I just need to be more aware of his presence and open my eyes.

Have you ever longed for something so bad that you felt your heart would burst? I have. I’m 40.5 years old. I have never been to Disney World or have had children. The latter is more important to me. When I have a child I can take her there. I really want a girl. I have nothing against boys though.

We’ve been married 19 years now. The time has flown by. I have and will always long for children. I see other people so happy to have them. I know our lives would never be the same. We’ve enjoyed our time together as husband & wife. It’s been exciting to be so free. We have lost some of that freedom with our dog. He needs us. I think we can handle the bigger challenge of a child.

I’ve been collecting kid stuff for many, many years in hope of the day I have a child of my own. I’ve been looking at the items collected and the longing lingers. I want to feel that my heart will burst with the love I can lavish on my child. Please pray for us. There are always reasonings why and when it should happen. I don’t want it to never occur.

Our best bet is to adopt. With the bipolar I’m taking to many risky drugs that would hinder a healthy birth. We looked at adoption before. It sounds like they scrutinize the potential parents more than the birth parents. They will know everything, about the bipolar, skin and breast cancer. We need a miracle to get a child. I have to hold fast and truly believe that all things are possible with God!

Turn up the heat, it’s too cool in here! Wow whee, zowee! The temperatures are starting to creep up and so is the humidity. I’m not complaining at all. We’re having a run of gorgeous days. We do what we love best, go to the beach. We can’t get enough of it. It is so much fun. I’ll always be a shellacholic. I can’t stop picking them up. It looks like another mural will be created when we revaluate what we have. Who knows?

When the weather is so great you know another storm is coming. In they come, fast they go. In life, it rains. How we handle storms affects our character. Are we able to bounce back quickly or stay still and let it beat us up? I face many storms. Right now I’m looking for full time work.

I’m currently subbing. The school year is winding down and I will soon be without a job. An opportunity has come up for me. I’m trying real hard to be patient and wait to hear back from them. It’s hard to be still and let go of the thoughts of whether I’ll get it or not. I wait. In the meantime, I keep looking for something. God provides and I know he will come through with something. I just need to trust him completely.