mindrides

Why do I dwell on the bad stuff? A lot of my posts deal with the negative side of life. I don’t want to be this way the rest of my life! I’m a pessimist at heart. I need to change my ways. I hate being like this. Can I? I just need an attitude adjustment. It’s like the chiropractor cracking your back to put your spine in place.

I step forth in faith, which is hard for me to do. My inclination is to doubt. I need to change my ways. Prayer is my best source of transformation, my prayers, as well as others. I can’t do life on my own. I’ve proven this by all the ways I’ve failed when I’ve not trusted God. My heart needs an adjustment. So keep me in mind as I take off on this journey.

I sit and stare at the walls feeling so alone. I have my dog, but he can’t fill the void in my heart with my hubbie gone. He will be back soon. I can’t imagine what it’s like to be single. I don’t want to know. I want my husband & I to live happily everafter. We’ll die in each others arms when were 88.

I can stand being alone temporarily. I just don’t like it. I sit with my thoughts dwelling on things that I don’t need to. I obssess over the stupidest stuff. My mind is a bank of uselessness sometimes. I don’t trust my emotions because they are fleeting. I pray that I get my thoughts under control, Gods. I want his mind, not mine.

Jesus was alone a lot. His closest friends abandoned him at the time he needed them most. He knows what I’m going through better than anyone else. I should learn from him that it’s okay to be alone sometimes. It’s just for a season.